At The Stars

"This one?"

She nodded quietly as she flicked the last of her cigarette into the sea of cars.

The setting was a busy one. Traffic was piling up and the sun was getting tired. It was about time everyone left.

"But why this one? What makes this one so particularly special?"

It was so easy to get lost in the setting, let alone your own thoughts. He tried to concentrate on holding onto just one thought but it seemed impossible. With every birth of a thought was the birth of another. Pretty soon, he found himself drowning in a sea of irrational behaviour.

"There's no reason. It's just the way things are."

She was always short in explanation. Always less never more because she lived to believe that a day at a time was the only way to go.

"But what if there was no today? Then how would things be? Why would you live that way? What made it happen this way?"

The dark sky was taking its course. You could already see the brightness of the black star peeping through holes of the burgundy drapes. He was trying to see what else could he say to make her stay, but every thing that came to mind seemed to pale and fade beyond her reasoning. And that was the way it always was. When placed next to her logic, every thing else would cease to make sense.

“But it doesn’t make any sense. YOU don’t make any sense. I’ve had enough of this!”

She watched as he stared back into her face with exasperation. Silly silly boy, she thought. Doesn’t he know that I will leave him one day? I look forward to the day I walk away from his arms, and feel his heart breaking in my smile.

She returned his frustration with a smile, and pondered about the many different theme songs that could and would enhance the soundtrack of her life.

“What makes you so… cruel? How can you live for each day by being so heartless? Don’t you have any compassion?!”

“There is no more room left for compassion or any other emotions. You’ve broken me a long time ago, and the only reason I’m still here is because I owe you this… favour…. I owe it to you to see you through your new world. Please don’t ask for anymore. You always wanted more from me - more than every thing that I could give you. And now, I’ve nothing left to give. You should be happy. You should be jumping for joy. And you must be! So, don’t question my motives or my feelings ever again.”

Staring into her lifeless eyes, he realised there was nothing left to salvage anymore.

He gave her one last look, and picked up the rest of his life that was scattered around and disappeared quietly back into the crazy world he once called home.

I’m just sad to think that I loved someone so cruel like you before.